Overdue

I think I'm overdue for a proper holiday. Long weekends are good, if you can spend them relaxing. I seem to choose to spend them with friends in long sessions. I can't turn down an invitation to hang out watching movies and playing console games, but my body would much rather rest. I'm a bit divided between being an introvert and an extrovert - I can't tell whether I recharge by myself or by being with others. It seems that when the company is really good and prolonged I feel great afterwards, or when I get as much time as I need to just sleep in and relax, doing nothing, I also feel good. It's this sort of in-between socialising that drains me. Seeing my friends in short bursts throughout the week just wears me down. I need something different. I need more than a day (perhaps more than a weekend) with people I love, or I need to be by myself for just as long.

Mokalus of Borg

PS - Sometimes I'm not sure if I know myself at all.
PPS - And then I get too busy to notice anymore.